I have a very addictive personality!

I don't mean that if you know me you will be addicted to me because I'm so interesting, lol. I only wish, but alas I can't be a genius and have a bunch of friends too :) Anyways on to what I was talking about, I find new things and like them. Like them so much that I go overboard with them. For example, I found the Goodmama diaper love, bought a TON of diapers and guess what, sold most of them because I didn't need them *smacks head*. So forever I have loved Partylite candle and I still do but I haven't really had the money to spend on them or the time to host a party so I can get them cheap! Well My Secret Santa sent me a Yankee Candle Tart warmer and I fell in love.... I went to the mall on Saturday for a little after Christmas Clearance and savings and ended up in Yankee Candle Store. They were having 50% off all there Holiday items!!! I walked out after spending 50$ I got 2 22oz jar candles, 2 shades and 2 plates. LOVE THEM! I bought a ton of tarts from Ebay, I bought tealights (read about walmart tealights) and 2 more jars off there online store (more 50% off prices), then today...hold on to your seat... I bought 8 22oz jars off there online site because they are 12.50$ EACH!!!!! OK I am done spending money on those stupid candles. Hopefully these will last me a long long time. See this is the problem I have, I am addictive! So if you love Yankee Candle go, go, go get some sales, they are amazing :)

Easy DIY change your Fuel filter? Not on our truck!

A month or so ago we started having chugging in our 2000 Ford Excursion. We thought we had put some bad gas in it and were experiencing water in fuel related issues. So we did all the normal things you might do when you start having vehicle problems. We changes the Air filter, added dry gas, changed the oil and bought a new fuel filter to change. We took a Sunday afternoon and figured we would have enough time to do these few minor fixes to our truck. Art started by changing the air filter, and draining the oil. These things after we had put in dry gas earlier that morning. Then while the oil was draining he decided to change the in line fuel filter. Not so fast! Did anyone know you need a special tool for this? Not us. Do you think the guys at Advanced Auto would have told us? Nope. So I searched the internet for some information. Any information to help us change the filter without the use of the tool. No such luck. I found a picture of it online and Art and I got to work fashioning our own tool. We really didn't want to take a trip to Cobleskill for a 20$ tool that we might never use again (not that 20$ is much but with the trip and all it would have been a pain). We made a tool, I got under the truck to help ( I HATE BEING UNDER A LOW LIEING TRUCK!!! DO I NEED TO SAY IT AGAIN?). Well the tool we made might have worked but it was too cold to keep trying it and of course it was not perfect being as we had never seen this tool in real life. So we had to buy it. It was less then 20$ but it did the job. Actually, Art changed the fuel filter in the church parking lot, after church, in the dark while the kids were in play practice. So yes it is an easy DIY job as long as you have the right tools. Break it down... Make sure you have the tool to change your Ford In line Fuel Gas Filter. It will save you hours of frustration and frostbite, lol
Here is a great link and a picture of the "special tool" Don't ask me what its called. I have no clue and I really don't care, just thought someone might need this someday when you are stuck trying to change your fuel filter.
Our tool looks slightly different but it is basically the same.

http://www.fordf150.net/howto/fuelfilter.php

Homegrown or storebought? Homegrown baby!

I sent Jr to our neighbors house today to give them a Christmas gift. I made Hot Chocolate and Homemade cake mix for there gift. When he came back he was carrying a dozen of fresh laid eggs, mmmm. I love fresh eggs! When I was a kid we had Rhode Island Red Hens and we got lots of eggs! We loved to search for them. Kind of like Easter everyday ;) Just to give you an idea of how much different homegrown eggs are from store bought here is a picture. Mind you my hands are very large and the egg on the left is very BIG, then next is a store bought egg and finally a small home grown egg! I feel bad for the hen that laid that very large egg, OUCH. One more thing, did you know that when a hen lays an egg she announces it! Yup, that is what all that racket is, lol.

Don't ever buy Walmart Tealights!!!!!!!

My wonderful Secret Santa from TWW sent me a Yankee Candle warmer with 4 tarts for my Christmas preset! I love it. I wanted to try it out but the only tealights I had was partylite and I didn't want to mess up the scent of the warmer but I found one that was vanilla. I figured that couldn't mess with the scent of the tart too much so I used it. What a wonderful smell! I went to walmart and bought there tealights. They are Mainstays Unscented Tealight candles. Well the first one burned ok, didn't really melt the tart very well. I took a closer look and the tealight doesn't even look like wax 8/ I figured that it must have been faulty and so I tried another one. It didn't even soften the bottom of the tart, not to mention that the flame was TINY! Well I thought maybe I need special warmer tealights so I was just going to use these to put in my partylite nativity scene. These burn so crappy that they only burn a little hole in the what is supposed to be wax ??? Needless to say I am very unhappy with these candles and will NEVER buy them again. I hope someone can read this and not waste there money on this junk. Pics anyone???

Quick Cloth diaper Help and a little info :)

There are a few different types of CDs, all-in-one, fitteds and prefolds/flats. All-in-ones are diapers that have the absorbant layer,fasteners and cover all in one diaper. Fitteds are the absorbant layer, may or maynot have the fasters and need a cover. Prefolds/flats are just the absorbant layer, these need fasteners (snappy or pins) and cover. A diaper needs to be absorbant and have a closure and a cover of some sort to protect clothing from getting wet. All-in-one,fitteds and prefolds/falts diapers can be ONE SIZE fits most with adjustable heights. They can also be sized, xs, s, m, l, xl. Cloth diaper require a Cloth Diaper safe detergent , you can't just use any detergent. here is a good list...
http://www.diaperjungle.com/detergent-chart.html
They also need to be cared for differently then normal laundry...
http://www.diaperjungle.com/washing-cloth-diapers.html
I suggest buying a toilet sprayer, anyone can install it, I installed mine...
http://www.diapersprayer.com/
Or make your own, looks very easy...you are looking to save money right :)
http://gidgetgoeshome.com/2008/08/25/diy-tutorial-make-your-own-diaper-sprayer/
Now that you know the basics, lets talk covers. I prefer Wool Covers and I knit them myself. I knit longies, soakers and skirties. Lanolize them and they are ready to prevent moisture from coming through.
http://www.cookiepants.com/clothdiaperreview.htm
My second choice is Thirties
http://www.thirstiesbaby.com/covers.htm
or something similar. PUL is excellent for keeping moisture in and your clothes dry :) That is a quick run down with help links. Let me know if you have any questions.

Why cloth for #5?

I am so thankful I stumbled across a post about cloth diapers. I was on a forum talking with my "peeps" and one of them stated how they just got a great deal on Bumgenius Cloth 3.0 Diapers. I had always thought of cloth diapers as prefolds and plastic pull up pants. That was how my grandma cloth diapered and how I had seen other ladies cloth diaper when I was growing up. I considered using those myself with my first child as a money saver but I wasn't able to have my own washer and dryer so I figured it would not work for me. Well child after child I struggled with buying diapers. I wanted to buy the best... Huggies...Pampers but couldn't afford them and so conceded to buying the cheapest I could find. I had pee leaks almost every night and when my child would poop it was a poop-splosion! Out the legs...up the back sometimes in there hair! YUCK. I was sick of it. When I heard the word Bumgenius I was on a mission. I now owned my own home, had my own washer and dryer and felt I could tackle cloth diapers. WOW was I surprised. I never knew there was such trendy cloth diapers as Bumgenius, Fuzzibunz, Kissaluvs, Happy Heiny's, Swaddlebees, Grobaby's and even way more Work at home mom designs! I had no clue there was all-in-one diapers that required almost no work, all I had to do was put it on my child and wash it when it was dirty. In January of this year we started cloth diapering our 5th child. I wish I had done it sooner. My diaper stash now consists of Bumgenius 3.0 One Size (no need to buy different sizes), Bumgenius Organics (all-in-one organic), Happy Heinys and Goodmama diapers. I love the ease of Bumgenius. They are great for an on the go family like ours. Easy to wear out, just as easy as a disposable to change, trendy and the best for the environment to boot! They are just as simple to wash. A dirty diaper goes in the diaper pail (just like a disposable), then every 2-3 days they go in the wash. 1 wash with an extra rinse and they are clean. Hang or in the dryer to dry! All ready to go on the bottom again. The diaper bag is no different to pack either. I hope that you are reading this because you are contemplating cloth diapering and I hope I have encouraged you to do so. Best of luck!

Sad

I don't belong here. I am mis-understood. A freak at best. I live in my own little world because there is no pain of rejection there. I want to help and do help others but when it comes to my friends being understanding of me its a no go. I am little and forgotten. I don't go out with friends. I don't go to friends houses. I don't invite friends over. I will live in my own little world forever. I am safe there. Everything is falling into place and I will soon be gone.

Other items for sale

I accept paypal and money order. Expensive items are shipped with Insurance and every item is shipped with delivery confirmation. I have feedback on EBAY, Diaperswappers, Spots (hyena cart) and used to be Goodmama Forum.
I have pictures of everything but I don't want to crowd my thread so you can just contact me or post to my blog to ask for pictures or ask questions :) I will update as things sell on ebay or wherever I have them listed ie ebay craigslist...

1) Girls Christmas Holiday Mrs. Santa Claus Dresses and Jumpers (Dress Jumper) They are Red velvety material some have white fluffy furry cuffs and hem. I have sizes 3-6 months, 18 months, 24 months, 2t, 36 months, 3t and 4t

2) Gap Girls Faux suede coat size 5-6 like new it is gorgeous! A must have.

3) Children's Place Heavy Winter Coat for boy size 10/12. Like New!!! Many hidden pockets with hood!

4) Clearblue / Clearplan Easy fertility monitor, gently used, reset to manufacs specs. Comes with instruction booklet 70$

5) Tons of Clearplan and Clearblue easy fertility test sticks strips, for use with the monitor some expired some with no exp date on them. These work regardless of what Clearblue says. THEY DO NOT REALLY EXPIRE. This is a farse and lie. Comeon people this is not food or medication!!!

6) First Response OPK Ovulation tests, these are also expired but they work great. I bought 100's of them and I use them to tell me when I'm having my LH surge so I don't get pregnant!!! I use them as a preventitive, you can use they as they are intended to acheive pregnancy. I just need the money right now, so they have to go. .75 Cents per test!!! This is an awesome deal. Buy as many or little as you want. I'll ship these in the range from 1$- 15$ depending on how many you need. These retail for 30$ per box (which contains 7 tests) at your local walmart or pharmacy.

7) 1 NEW Bumgenius Organic All-in-one one-size fits 7-35lbs with snap closure, sold as a second. 22$ppd

That is all I can think of right now. I'm sure I'll post more later.

For sale!!!

OK so here I am listing my for sale items on my blog in hopes that someone may stumble acrossed my posts and find something they need. So here it all is.... I need money :(

I am very mad at Goodmama. They closed there forum with no reason or excuss. They just started to add things like :"Christmas Swap" and other Threads and now they say we love to change so BLAM the forum is closed. With total disregard to all the members there and the buyers and there followers. So in light of this I am selling a ton if not all of my GMs!!! I don't care for there lack of respect to there buyers. So Goodmama Cloth diapers For sale. I accept paypal and US money order. I have the following prints Used from 17$ including shipping. Comic-Kazi is a HTF print so is 85$

In Love
Infactuation
Rainbow Sky

Smitten
Carribeen solid

First Love Paprika
Hard Candy

Rainbow Noir
Rollerskater
Hazard Solid
Riff

Tangy Tarty
Skydancer
Endless Love

Kimono
Secret Garden
Goodnight with pink inner
Pure Love
Comic-Kazi
Oil Slick

Green Grass
Air mail

Save the queen
Celebrity
Sublimination

First Love Carribeen
1981
True Love
This Much

Underground
Motion Blur

Cherry Ricky
Blueberry Bramble

Break-up
Ice cream cones
Sassy
Neo
Queen Anne
Posy
Palimino Paint

Plus alot more in the dryer and in the diaper bag that I have to get out and take pictures

I am also selling alot of other items:

Graco Infant Carseat 15$

Craftsman Drill Driver set 95$ shipped

1 Large Antique Crock 150$ No shipping on this one fokes :)

Some of my knitting, I'm getting better...

Bengals Longies

Skirtie

Scrappies

Tatoos

I really want to get another tatoo, but what am I going to tell my kids? I really don't see anything wrong with them...I'm sure I'm wrong in stating this...but I really want another one so here is 2 I have narrowed it down too. Make that 3 :)

Shopping

I went shopping tonight :) I just love saving money. I got formula for 4.97 & 4.99 per can to resell, Thanks to coupons & checks :) I saved lots of money tonight and will list the formula for resale tomorrow! We also bought the new Barbie movie. The girls said they wanted it as a reward but I said that wouldn't be fair to JR. He said on know that was alright because he bought himself a pack of gum. So I told the girls they could buy it and walking out the door, I hear the kids arguing. Jr is mad because it wasn't fair that the girls got rewarded (never mind he said he didn't mind, that meant he did mind *rolling eyes*), Meme was mad because she wanted something different which in turn made Abby mad because she didn't get to "pick" anything out. Please people...I wish I could make everyone happy. So I said fine it's going back to the store, then Ariel started crying, real tears. Daddy put the kibosh to the mess and said..."We are the parents...what we say goes...if you don't like it go lay in your bed while the movie is playing..." GO DADDY! Score 1. And he took us for 39 cent ice cream cones at McDonald's, yum. Everyone seemed a bit happier then. So all in all it was a good night. :)

On my mind...

Abortion and Miscarriages are on my mind lately. I am so confused as to how a mother that M/Cies at 4-5 weeks or more can realize that she has just lost a life but yet a woman that has an abortion just took out the trash, so to speak. How can it be a child to one and a mass of tissue to another? There is a right answer here. I'll let you figure it out. When is a baby a baby? Is it when a child is viable as some would say? Then I say to you, my 3 year old is not a child for she needs to be feed, clothed, schooled exc... she cannot care for herself. Well she can breathe and her body functions are normal but if I don't feed her she will then die. Our children are dependant upon us for EVERYTHING! From the first stages of pregnancy to when they are expecting there own children. I still need my dad to do things for me...to care for me.... to love me.... I'm glad he wasn't pro-choice. I searched online for miscarriage pictures. I wanted to see what a baby looked like in the early stages of miscarriage. This is what I found
http://www.jillstanek.com/archives/2007/03/bethanys_baby.html
I linked it so you wouldn't have to read the story or view the pictures. Warning*** a picture of a 5-6 week old baby that was miscarried. How precious, and I ask you, if a baby looks like that at 5-6 weeks (most women don't even know they are pregnant yet) what does it look like when a woman goes in for an abortion? You see the pictures...is that not a baby? Is that just some tissue? How is that a baby but to a person that is pro-choice that is no more then a tissue piece. I can go on and on but people who are pro-choice do not care if its a baby or not, they are selfish people only doing what they want. They know there excuses are just that EXCUSES, but alas they do not care. They aren't "ready " for a baby, then they can't go out and party...and the list goes on and on. I love the biggest saying pro-choice throw out "what if a woman gets pregnant from a rape?" Less then 1% of rape victims get pregnant. That poor girl has been hurt already, do you really think that killing and innocent child will help her more? No it makes a horrible experience even worse. Abortion wrecks a woman, wrecks a nation and destroys a life.

Poor Arfie

Arfie just called to tell me he was picking up garbage under one of the bushes down at the school and bees swarmed out and stung him 5 times on the hand!!! Poor hubby. I told him to take a sick day and come home but nope, he's to stubborn. Does Middleburgh even realize what an awesome worker they have? Probably not. I wish someone would see his potential and keep him on first shift. He deserves praise and recognition for the hardwork that he does there. Kuddos to my Hubby, he is "THE BEST" Mwah!

Another Lawyer???

Oh no, M is 1 and I'm getting baby fever. I would love to have more kids but our house is so small. Our income is lacking, somewhat, but over all I want more babies!!! I know I'm selfish. I think daily all the pros and cons. I know for sure it won't be for a while but I can't help the desire. I'm crazy I know. Haha, I have 5 kids. It sounds like a lot when you say "5" but I know each one of my kids as individuals. So to me it's not a lot. Dan said he thinks of us as catching the Staskos :) That is OK. I just wish I had a bigger house...Hhhmmmm

After 13 years...Miscarriage

Miscarriage ...

Let me start by saying, this writing has been a long time coming and I'm finally able to see this on paper. I didn't even know what it was until years later. I was 17 years old, living with my bf (boyfriend) who is know my Dear Husband (DH) I was late for my period and thought I was pregnant. So he went out and bought an HPT. I don't know what kind it was or how sensitive. Heck I don't even think I read it right. I tested and remember it being negative. But back then I would have considered a light second line negative because I thought it had to be as dark as the control line. DOH I was 17. So I threw out the test and about 2 weeks later got what I thought was AF (Aunt Flow). I didn't even know I was m/cing!!! It makes me so sad to look back know and know now what happened so long ago and now I morn I remember having really bad cramps and sitting on the toilet bleeding really bad. I passed a few grey/blue clots and was totally freaked out because I thought I was dieing. I called in a girlfriend and asked her if she even had a period like that. I told her what I was passing. She thought I was crazy and said she never had a period like that. The heavy bleeding and clots lasted about 2 days and then it was like my normal period but I bled for a few days longer. That "period" stuck in my mind for a long time. I got married... got the internet and started researching online about m/c's. I always knew there was something wrong then and now I know I had a miscarriage. To this day Arthur will not come to terms with it. I have and I still grieve. I grieve because It happened and I didn't even know what it was until years later & I grieve because I was living a sinful life, maybe if I hadn't been living such a horid life my baby would be alive. I was about 6-7 week along and miscarried naturally. I passed about 4-5 bluish gray clots, a ton of red blood clots. Bleeding was about 7-8 days, no drugs or D&C. I bled for 7-8 days. My baby is in Jesus arms. "Suffer the little children to come unto me and forbid them not for such is the kingdom of heaven" About 40% of all pregnancies end in miscarriage, most of those before a pregnancy test is even taken....

Abby, yet again...

Me: On my computer, sufing the web or ebay, can't remember...

Meme: ***Breathlessly*** "MOMMMMMYYYYYY" running down the stairs. "MMAAAMMMAAA"

Me: ***Calm and Cool*** "Calm down Meme, whats wrong?"

Meme: ***Still Breathlessly, like dieing, I can't breath*** "ABBY" "ABBY"

Me: ***Now a little nervious**** "What did she do?"

Meme: "She cut her hair!"

Me: *** Litterly FLYING from my seat, up the stairs*** "Abby, where are you?"

Abby: ***All innocint, little miss "I never do anything wrong" *** In the bathroom, "What mommy?"

Me: ***In shock*** "What did you do?"

Abby: "I cut my hair"

Me: ***In tears***

Meme: ***Crying histerically, seriously***

Me: "Meme why are you crying? Why are you crying??"

Meme: ***Looking at Abby*** "You were so beautifulllllll" ***Tears streaming down her face***

Abby: ***Tears running down her face*** "I'm sorry Meme"

Me: ***In tears and trying not to laugh***

Pictures anyone??? At the top

Makanah

My Sweet baby is 1 year old now! AHHH where does the time go??? What a doll she is!

Cake Anyone?

We decided to celebrate Arfie and Meme's birthday today just because it is easier to do on the weekend when all the family can get together. Makanah has been running a high fever since she got her shots on Tuesday, so she didn't hardly sleep last night and that means I didn't sleep either. I got up early with her this morning and had to give her a bath just to cool her down. Then we went back to sleep until the other kiddos got up. During that time I slept wrong on my shoulder, so my neck is really sore and my shoulder hurts. Arthur came home at lunch time and brought me coffee ( I know what a sweety). It was during that time I told him that I was going to make goulash for dinner. He gave me that look and was like, I don't really like goulash. OK so this is the first time I've heard that. Then I told him I had to take my truck because I had to go shopping (why do I do this to myself, I'm a retard for taking 5 kids shopping) and to the post office. He was like, you sure you want to do that? Do you really want that for dinner? I said, What do you want to do? He says, I don't care just do what you were going to do. You know the shpiel (it's spelled right I checked). So he kisses me goodbye and I proceed with my afternoon. I got everone packed up, went to Price Chopper, Walmart, The Post Office, got gas, changed a diaper, nursed the baby and walked away unhurt with all 5 kids! I did pretty good. I let Meme pick out her cake and had them write on it. So I got home and the kids were bringing in the groceries. I brought in the cake and set it on the counter. Arthur and I talk a little about what he and I had done. Then he looked at the cake and says "Chocolate! You know I hate chocolate!" Ya know, I just lost it. I was tired of the complaining and ticked he didn't want what I was going to make for dinner or the cake I bought, when I was proud of myself!!! So do you know what I did? I took that stinking cake and threw it right at him! There I said, now we won't have chocolate cake. We have been married for 12 years and I never threw anything at him, well today he pissed me off! I can only take so much complaining. So we argued for a little bit and then it was a mad dash to get a new cake because my family was coming over to have dinner and cake! Arthur took Meme and sped to Walmart, I cleaned the house a little and put the groceries away. He brought me a card home that said I love you and I have yet to tell him I'm sorry...I am sorry. So as I was making dinner Dan and LeAnn got here. I went out to get the clothes off the line and smelled gas, I asked Dan to see if our tank was leaking and it was so he had to shut off the gas and I called the propane company, they are coming tomorrow. So no using my stove. Well, Arthur didn't have to eat that awful goulash, we ordered Hubies insted. After dinner I lit the candle on the cake and we were singing (I was holdiing the cake for Meme) , as the song ended I moved a little to my left and Jake was standing right there, wouldn't you know but that stupid cake went flying, lit candle and all right onto Jakes legs and the floor. I just sat on the floor looking at the mess. I didn't know if I was going to cry or laugh and I didn't know what anyone elses reaction was going to be. Everyone burst out laughing, I told them how I threw the other one and now I had ruined the second one too. Can you say 40$ on the floor??? I laughed. We were not meant to have cake today, well at least not the frosting. By the way it sure felt awesome to throw that cake and I'm not sad about the money lost.

*Sigh* Abby

Everyone knows I am way to busy to wear Mascara. Once in a while when I need a pick me up I will dig out my little make-up bag under the sink with my 50 year old make-up in it. Yes, it really is close to 50 years old, I can't remember the last time that I bought make-up. It literally has to be dug out so I have no idea how this could have happened but only Abby. Seriously that child is really teaching me patence. And God Laughs..... I was diligently working, well ok, playing on my computer when Meme came running, "Abby, Abby, Mommy come quick" she was shouting. Ofcourse, I don't panic, I calmly ask whats wrong. She was just catching her breathe when Abby comes sauntering down the stairs and I notice, She is wearing mascara. I totally can't keep a straight face, I mean, how on earth am I supposed to be mad at her? Its just like the time she thought my pads were stickers, but that is another story. So I just laugh and laugh and finally take pictures. This is what I saw...

I'm ADDICTED, I mean really how many cloth diapers does it take to cover a babies butt??? I am totally obsessed!!! I have multiple Bumgenius (oh around 20+), and some new ones hidden (special Easter colors ya know) a few odds and ends and then the love of my life Goodmamas! I own a bunch of them, stalk the goodmama site, trade diapers and wish I had some of the hard to find prints. I am so insane, who takes pictures of their favorite dipes? Me. Who takes pictures of their diapers hanging on the clothes line? Me. Who takes pictures of their child just because they have a cute diaper on their butt? Me. And further more who pays high prices for a stupid diaper because they like the print? ME ME ME! ***Sigh*** Hello, My name is Melissa and I'm addicted to buying cute diapers and putting them on my baby's butt. Now here are some pictures for you...

My hidden ones...shhhh

Drying on the line, whoo-hoo



And my most expensive diaper, no I'm not tell how much I spent on it, yes Arthur knows, LOL

Funny Funny!

Little Abby is my "Devil child", she is always getting into trouble. She is terribly mischevious! The other day everyone was out enjoying this awesome NY weather we just had and I counted heads (as I frequently do these days). Abby was missing. I don't get to worried, I'm not usually one of those moms that goes into a panic right away, so I asked Meme where Abby was. She started looking down the back hill and I started calling her. When Meme didn't find her, I walked inside and went to the bathroom. Then I asked Ariel, who was in her room, if she knew where Abby was. She said yes Abby was in her room. We took a quick look in the girls room but no Abby. Ariel was sure she was there a minute ago, now I was getting a little nervious. Ariel then proceeded to tell me that Abby had come into there room carrying a 5lb bag of shredded cheese and hid it under her pillow. Sure enough Ariel pulled out the bag of cheese and handed it to me. I walked out of the room, in search of my missing child, and checked in my room. Guess who was hiding in there. Yup, Abby. The little mischevious grin on her face....

I'm 30 a mom of 5 and now I find out, hhmmm

Well once again, Thanks Amber.
Here is a copy of the email I sent to everyone:

Hello, My friends.
Please don't think I have lost it...yet anyway. I kind of stumbled acrossed this information this week. I am asking you all as Christians to read it and ponder on it. I used BCP for a few months when I was 16 and when I got pregnant with Abby (God is laughing). But I never took the time to research it. I thought and was told that it kept a woman from ovulating however I am now finding out that this is not always the case. Please read the information that I am sending you. And yes I know this man doesn't use the KJV. Take time to look up the verses he gives. This matter now saddens me. I hope that by being informed Christians we can make good choices in our lives and those of us that are past the conception age can pass on knowledge to the younger generation.
Love in Christ
Melissa

I will post the links rather then the whole book here
http://www.epm.org/media-files/pdf/bcpill.pdf

Not for the faint of heart

This is not for the faint of heart. As I start to write this many memories come flooding back. I feel the need to write this momory down, maybe I will get some peace.

All I feel about that time is sadness, extreme sadness. I woke up to a warm room and dim sunshine coming thought my window. It was time to get up, get dressed and greet the cold to care for the animals. What am I going to wear? Man its going to be cold out, I better dress really warm. Are there no matching gloves? I guess I will put socks over my hands. I have poop patrol today, lucky David gets to feed and water. It really looks cold out, I guess I better get going. Steping out into the fridged are.... BBBRRRR, the wind is coming right through my coat and sock gloves. Here's the bucket and the pitch fork. Empty, worthless thoughts running through my head. Whats that? What the heck? Oh, no Tora has her paw caught! Running, somethings not right. Oh I can't get it out! "David, come quick....Help me, I can't get her paw out!!!" David has to KICK her paw to get it un-stuck, its terribly swollen. "Lets get her into the house, her foot seams to be frozen solid." In the house she warms up and the paw continues to swell. "What do we do mom?" goes un-answered. Again "What sould we do, can we wrap it?" The paw starts to crack open, like skin tearing. "Take her to the barn and tie her there", we are instructed. I'm going to throw-up. We take her out and tie her, crying. Hot tears running down our young cheeks. Leaving her there but we don't know why. We go to feed her later that day. ***I'm crying now*** She has chewed her paw and foot off! I am so sick, I am freaking out... running to the house. "MOM, MOM...." more tears, my heart is going to beat out of my chest, I am struggling to stay on my feet, running fast in the snow. "MOM, what do we do, mom!!!" "Take her far up back into the woods and tie her to a tree, David." "But mom...", "Take her now." David brings her up deep into the back woods and ties her to a tree, tons of tears, fears, heartbreak. It cannot be bore with such little hearts. Returning home, the house is silent, even silent tears. Hours later...What is that? A scratching at the door.... Tora she has chewed her tie and returned home with only 3 paws, how is she serviving. "Can't we please take her to the vet...please" "There is nothing that can be done now, take this chain and go tie her back in the woods, she can't chew a chain" Oh Lord, help, please help. I can't bear the pain. She is taken back out and chained in the cold dark woods, lonely, so lonely, loyal, man's best friend betrayed by her family. Tied with LITTLE HANDS and left to die by LITTLE INNOCENT HEARTS, throbbing in pain. She dies.

I am plagged by this memory, Father, forgive me, I was only a child instructed by a cold hardhearted adult.