"Precious"

I'm ready to post this. I was ready from the start but my husband wanted some time to adjust. On January 19th 2010 we found out, quite unexpectedly that we were expecting again :) We actually had been preventing and were very very surprised that the pregnancy test was positive. A few days later I had a "bleeding episode" as I called it. It was a large amount of blood only when I sat on the toilet. It was gone as fast as it came but was enough to start me worrying. I was nervous as I never had any bleeding with the other kids. I was also nervous because according to me charting, I had no clue as to when I got pregnant and I just didn't think it was right. I knew something was off. A few days after that "episode" I had another. Same exact thing as the first. My nurse midwife, said to have bloodwork done was overkill. I totally disagree. I decided to be prepared for the worst and drove to Walmart to buy pads. On February 3 I got really bad terrible cramps and back ache. I started to bleed real bad. My tests got lighter and we lost our baby. I'm glad I know without a doubt that our baby is in heaven. We named our baby Precious.